To anyone who is thinking about ending his/her life.
Stay strong. ๐ซถ
ik you feel like there's nothing left anymore.. everything is over..
maybe you are struggling to get a job or with your love life..
but ending life seems peaceful sometimes.. like, i wish i never existed.. there is just too much chaos in this world..
the guy who took his life in noida prolly thought the same.. i can bear this physical pain, but it won't matter after i die.. but it's hard to bear this mental pain.
i did hard work to get my life running.. good career and good loving wife..
but instead, life got worse.
boss treats you like an ass even tho he is paying you decently.
no social life.
wife treats you like her credit card, but when she is bored of you.. she wants a divorce and a big cheque amount to live the rest of her life.
but no one thought about him.. the chaos he is carrying within.
many ppl committed suicide because they had no idea that life is more than this.. others call them weak.. but those who call them weak don't know what the person is experiencing.. their mental state is completely different from yours..
maybe he is trying to fight, but it's so hard to break these chains of expectations, shame, and responsibility.. or maybe he is tired.
so you see... the guy committed suicide because he was seeing himself through the lens of society and others.. he could live happily without all of this.
without money, without a wife, and without every earthly desire.
but yes, it's hard to live without them in society, as everyone is going to kinda force you indirectly to live a lifestyle like them.
oh, he got a new car.. i should get one too, maybe an expensive one.. even tho i already have one..
oh, his girlfriend is cute.. i should get one too, even tho i don't need one..
so it's more like what they need and not what i need...
even when they don't need something, they are also replicating what others are doing..
reality is,
no one knows what they want.
how do you avoid this question then..
oh, what does he want??
he loves corporate jobs.
he loves being a programmer..
simple then, i want the same thing..
the guy just forced it on himself.
not saying that you should not study technical subjects, but there are things which you need for your upliftment and for your own growth.
something you love.
something you wanted to do with your life.
but now you are already doing things that others want, not you..
it's hard to escape this.. your shitty job cuz it pays your rent..
the way ppl cope with this is..
they try to compare their salaries with others..
temporary joy.. it's similar to porn..
don't take my words wrong.. i was just trying to relate things with you..
everyone has their hardships in their life..
maybe you are not capable of doing what you love rn..
maybe a job is necessary for you, but before the time ends.. please focus on what you want in your life.
we are living like we know death will never come... but it will come anytime, and believe me.. none of it matters when it faces you..
it will ask you straight in the face.. did u enjoy it?? your life??
sorry hehe i may have written something stupid yappstuff.. it's just that i want you ppl to eat healthy and live your life on your terms.. and start caring about you more.
Not just our generation, every single person wants to be loved and appreciated. The reason so many ugly and bad people exists is because they were not loved properly
Our generation pretends to be all cool and nonchalant but literally everyone wants to be loved unconditionally! We are somehow the stupidest and loneliest people ever!!
situationship, benching, bread crumbing, love bombing, gaslighting, talking stage ek taraf and "ek baar chance dede yaar, saari zindagi khush rakhunga" ek taraf