friend tell oog: “oog need to love self first before anyone love oog.”
oog nod. sound wise. everyone say this.
but then oog think.
mama love oog before oog love self. papa love oog before oog even KNOW what self is. chuk and fru and zul and koom love oog on day when oog can’t stand oog.
oog worst day. the really bad one last cold season. where oog feel like nothing. like empty cave. koom climb on oog lap and say “oog is warm” and fall asleep.
koom not check if oog love self first. koom just felt warm and stayed.
maybe the saying is backward. maybe it not “love self first THEN receive love.” maybe it “let someone love you on the day you can’t. and borrow their eyes until yours work again.”
oog not saying don’t try to love self. try. please try.
but on the day you can’t? don’t lock the door. someone outside with warm hands. let them in.
love, oog