I just want peace.
I just want life to stop hurting for once.
I just want one season of my life where I don’t have to constantly fight just to stay okay.
Because truthfully,
I don’t know how many more times I can keep rebuilding myself after breaking.
It’s honestly so unfair how life seems to hit the hardest the moment you finally allow yourself to feel happy again.
The second you start believing that maybe things are getting better, that maybe you’ve survived the worst of it, something comes crashing down all over again.
I hate becoming this version of myself again.
I hate feeling like all the progress I made is disappearing right in front of me.
I hate feeling like no matter how hard I try to become better, life keeps dragging me back into the same darkness.
I’m exhausted.
More than exhausted.