i can't afford any more situations in my life that bring out the worst in me. it's exhausting and requires too much for me to recover from. i need calmness and gentleness in my life. i can't handle anything beyond that.
if i start crying in front of you that means iโm really hurting. because believe me, i hate crying in front of people. but when i do, i must be in severe pain and i just can't control it.