If I ever stop talking to you and remove you from my life, I hope you understand how hard it was for me. I have a terrible habit of holding onto the little bit of good in people, no matter how bad they clearly are for me. so if I don't associate myself with you anymore, it's because you pushed me far past my limits.
I’ve been so burnt out lately that I feel like I’m losing parts of myself. It’s been hard to communicate, connect, or even enjoy things the way I used to. I’ve been focused on surviving and staying strong in a chaotic world, and somewhere along the way, I forgot how to just have fun. Some days I feel stuck in survival mode, trying to find my way back to who I really am.
i dream of never being called resilient again in my life. i’m exhausted by strength. i want support. i want softness. i want ease. i want to be amongst kin. not patted on the back for how well i take a hit. or for how many.
i keep a document on my phone called “things that felt like the end of the world but weren’t.”
every time i’m spiraling i add to it.
then i read the old ones.
“didn’t get into first choice college” (met my best friend at second choice).
“thought i’d never get over them” (can barely remember their face now.
it’s becoming proof that i can survive everything. even this.
Saw a post that said women will survive abuse, heartbreak, grief, and unspeakable tragedies and STILL move through the world with kindness and compassion. but one minor inconvenience in a man's childhood and he spends the rest of his life terrorizing and poisoning everyone around him😮💨
Women are staying single & childfree not because they hate men, but because they watched their mom, their boss, their friend
raise a baby and a husband. They said no thanks