Vinny

Meh..

[Vinny @_vinny01]

"A faint clap of thunder clouded skies, Perhaps rain comes
Will you stay here with me?".
A tanka from - Makoto shinkai
"Even if it not rains I will be here"
This quote causes some sort of feeling in me whenever I hear it or read it.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Delaying gratification is hard man. I seem to instinctively gratify myself every week. it's kinda hard to control but I think I'm getting better at it. I need to get me a house to so I can work towards on that.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Hmm where can I meet woman that can banter well and not just childish play with words I can't handle those types of banter not for me. I use to be alright before as long as their pretty but now damn I'm not easily attracted to pretty girls they gotta have brains.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I went on a date yesterday hmm it was alright sadly I don't like the girl that much. No banter wasn't interesting enough for me. She was cute and all but I seek more than just a pretty face.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I'll be focused on my finance and physical as well as my mental health this year. I still have a decision to make on January 20 tho. It's either I get a laptop through installments and get my braces and teeth fixed or just fully paying my laptop.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I'm currently talking to this girl that wanted a friends with benefits set up and I hope it goes well so I can check out one of my boxes. Which is the lack of having sex hahaha and this works for me well since I'm not planning to be tied down for the next 5 years.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I'm slowly building myself to be the man I want to be in the future. And I'm making sure that no one or nothing comes in my way of getting the things that I want.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I've learned a lot from hardships that I was going through last year and I'll make sure all of the things I learned will be applied this year. Regardless if I'm gonna do it alone or with a pack. I'll make sure this time everything goes to plan.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Hopefully in a couple more months I see more results. Since I will be needing the results to continue what I am doing right now as a source of motivation for me. It just sucks that it takes a long as time. I wish I was this focused before when I was younger.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I was once a social butterfly before I guess all the bullying really hindered me to bring out the man I once was. But now I will make sure all my paths are aligned with my goals. I'm getting better in saying no to things that don't matter to me anymore.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Not wasting anymore years of my life. And these small progress that i've been getting are really helpful for me. I just wish I can do so much more with my free time so I can actually progress not only financially but also socially. I think I'm ready again.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Hoping for a great year!! I just wish that the goal I have set for myself this year will be attained with no failure. I gotta make sure everything is settled and have laser beam focus. I'm not gonna be wasting time this is my chance to get to where I need to be.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I have work at 12am and I can't fvking sleep hahaha I guess I'm gonna pull an all-nighter I just hope I don't get a lot of task cause it be a bummer for sure. Please be nice to meee. I'm just Soo mad right now cause they switched my day offs and I can't enjoy the holidays

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I did buy some new shirts which is pretty cool I guess but I need some new pants cause my pants are either ripped or too old to wear and most of them don't look good on me. I need some new chinos or something. Maybe I'll buy some on my next payday.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Working on Christmas day is kind of a normal thing to me now. I guess holidays aren't for me . I just wish that I can get back the days when I was younger. Holidays such as Christmas and new years were the best days. I can't even enjoy food anymore since there's not a lot.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I suddenly remembered my so called friends from work before they were the shitiest people I knew they were the ones that started my anxieties, they made my anxieties way worse and I just hope that I can fight this off my head and move on. But it's kinda hard I remember it well.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

Mann it's my second dose today why the hell am I gonna do. I still have work after wards and there's no schedule so I don't know what time I should go. Fvk sake why can't we live in simple times like before.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I don't know what's wrong with me?? These past couple of days I haven't been sleeping right? I'm stressed about something but I don't know what. Plus my bed feels kinda heavy right now. Is it because of Christmas?? Fvk I hate this feeling

[Vinny @_vinny01]

I've always wondered if ever I get a redo in life would I do the same things again? What if in a different universe I meet a complete opposite of me? Would I be happy or sad hmmm.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

How to practice minimalism. These past few months I've been getting things I need but not the things I want. I can't seem the grasp the idea of wanting less because they say less is more.

[Vinny @_vinny01]

How the hell am I gonna reach my protein intake I can't afford damn whey protein for now I got lots of shit to pay for damn holidays killing me hahaha