Right now, your greatest responsibility is getting your life back on track and becoming the strongest, healthiest version of yourself. Stop wasting your energy worrying about who stays or who goes. This chapter isn’t about chasing people or trying to hold everything together. It’s about coming back to yourself. Heal your mind. Rebuild your discipline. Take care of your body. Protect your peace. Get serious about your goals. And reconnect with the person you were before you started losing pieces of yourself trying to be everything for everyone else. You don’t need to know who will be there at the end. Focus on becoming someone you’re proud to bring into the next chapter. The people who are meant to be part of your next chapter will meet you there. For now, your job is to become the person you want to be when you arrive.
Intelligent people struggle with addiction. Their minds need more. More depth. More to disappear into. They have obsessions nobody around them shares. Philosophy. Literature. Astronomy. Documentaries. Quantum physics. Dostoevsky. Kant. Books, music, films, ideas they've gone so deep into that ordinary conversation starts to feel like small talk. And small talk feels like suffocation. So... they drink. Work until 2 am. Doomscroll until they feel nothing. Because there is a gap between who you are and the conversations available to you. And sometimes, that gap becomes unbearable. And it's one of the loneliest places a person can live.