@blackcathwaa I think you should start it slow, like when i started i use to put it for 30 mins and till then i use to dance around or go outside. Then whenever the timer stopped i used to get too tired so i used to say "ugh later" so i procastinated it till hrs flew by
@coconvtboy I know exactly how tough it is to stop :((( it's not less than a drug but trust me noah once you identify the strength in you it's gets a little easier to stop, I know you can stop if you want! try reading this if it can help you in any way and I'm also here to help.
Omg forgot to mention that i finally have some fuckass money now, i bought myself new clothes and beautiful gifts instead of spending it on food that I'm not even gonna get to enjoy
Parents are at peace now, my parents mostly never gaf abt me but on top of that my purging absolutely EXHAUSTED them. It nonetheless hurt them about wtf their daughter is doing, but I can see the smile on their face now that they've noticed that their baby isn't vomitting.
βΊ there are so many reasons, but in the end of the day the point is that I've gotten my life back ; I'm happy, and trust me I know it feels comfortable to be absorbed in misery and sadness, but being happy is even better . . β‘
Getting smart again, I had terrible brain frog at that time but now I can seriously remember stuff and like I'm just smarter now, my grades have improved
My depression has gotten "better"(?) ; The deathly combination of them both absolutely wiped any will to live from my body but I'm actually starting to appreciate life now..I am so less pessimistic..