If you're waking up for TAHAJJUD consistently, know that your status is good in Allah's sight. Only chosen & special ones get those private meetings with Allah. Trust me, that heartbreak that led you to TAHAJJUD was the biggest blessing, gift and mercy of Allah for you.
Allah is Al-Jabbar, which means He has the power to fix anything that is broken. No matter how shattered you may feel due to life's challenges, have faith that Al-Jabbar can help you put yourself back together. Trust in Him to restore you, even when it seems impossible.