everytime i slow down or shrink myself to meet someone else where they’re at, i am reminded why i can’t do that. i completely lose myself until i’m an empty shell + mourn who/where i could’ve been had i just kept myself + my happiness first + let whoever is serious catch up to me
the mental gymnastics required to convince yourself you're not enough, it's too good to be true, you don't deserve it, it won't work for you - takes so much more energy than just deciding you have it + moving accordingly. you're exhausting yourself by resisting your own potential