The worst feeling is when you’re constantly stuck thinking about whether you still mean anything to them. Are you on their mind at all? Or do they just quite literally wish they never met you so they just ignore you completely.
It’s sad the only thing I’ve had consistent in my life is that everyone leaves. Friends, family. I guess they just realize that I’m not worth the effort of simply sticking around. I envy anyone with childhood friends b/c coming from someone without any it’s lonely after a while.
It’s really hit me the last week that my best friend is 15 and I don’t have much time left with him.. his age is getting to him and I don’t want him to suffer yet I physically cannot picture life without him. I’m a mess right now. I just want him to be with me always 😭😭😭