illy ୨୧

had to delete previous bio welp. info in pinned + strawpage!! || alt - @illyenditpls priv - @illyyyss

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

stupid weight limit, stupid heart complications, stupid EKG’s, stupid health requirements, I hate this, just prescribe me the meds or I’ll die from this constant psychological torture

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

clomipramine would solve like 50% of my problems right nowww

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

this is literally so stupid, but when things look too similar to places I’ve seen before, it freaks me out

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

lidl is such a scary place. I’m travelling at the moment and went to lidl to get some shopping, and it looked basically identical to the one back home where I live. for a second I thought I was dreaming or going crazy or something </3 I love lidl though

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

I’m guessing they just use a similar layout for the different locations T^T should’ve thought about that sooner

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

lidl is such a scary place. I’m travelling at the moment and went to lidl to get some shopping, and it looked basically identical to the one back home where I live. for a second I thought I was dreaming or going crazy or something </3 I love lidl though

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

you still won’t catch me eating a vegetable though

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

I’ve been trying new foods recently. I’ve tried enchiladas and soy sauce, I liked both yay!! I’m officially considering myself a reformed picky eater

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

@lunekms I swear they both just have so many symptoms, signs and causes, like even if I don’t end up having it, I can’t say I’m surprised that I thought I did 😭

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

watch me go to the doctor and be told it’s nothing and that I was just overreacting

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

my health anxiety has been awful the last few weeks, first I was reading about/convinced I had hyperthyroidism, then hypermetabolism, then hyperparathyroidism, THEN kidney stones (terrifying), and now i think I have a uti. this is just great

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

this shit comes back to mess up my life every 4 years, I missed out on so much stuff because of it a few years ago and I really REALLY don’t want that to happen again, especially now of all times 😭 pls

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

I’m also falling back into my old contamination ocd habits, which isn’t a good mix with health anxiety. I’m so fucked

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

my health anxiety has been awful the last few weeks, first I was reading about/convinced I had hyperthyroidism, then hypermetabolism, then hyperparathyroidism, THEN kidney stones (terrifying), and now i think I have a uti. this is just great

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

@d3caying_fl3sh omg LITERALLY THIS 😭 I always end up doing this to myself lol, I was trying to tell myself last night to just distract myself because thinking about it was making stuff worse welp. thank you thank you foomfie ^_^ I need to try and do this more sobsobss

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

my health anxiety has been awful the last few weeks, first I was reading about/convinced I had hyperthyroidism, then hypermetabolism, then hyperparathyroidism, THEN kidney stones (terrifying), and now i think I have a uti. this is just great

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

this is probably (extremely likely) true

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

just telling myself that i can’t get panicked until I see a doctor though, because some of the “symptoms” might just be my mind playing tricks on me :p

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

I feel like a piece of shit whenever someone recommends that I read or watch something, because I know I’m not going to be able to, and I feel like it’ll end up driving a wedge in between my friendships/relationships, and that makes me so sad

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

having a disorder that makes it near impossible to develop and enjoy new interests, or even my current interests, is literally a form of torture. especially when I want to try and connect with other people and understand shows, or books, or topics they’re interested in too

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

@wateredpeaches fear not, I got the good genetics I CAN DRINK MILK YIPPEEEEE!! one time I drank expired milk straight from the jug and it scarred me for life 💔 so I always end up pouring it out first to check it because now I’m terrified of that happening again T^T but it’s so good from the jug

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

I feel like my ed clinic is purposely creating issues with my blood results. whenever my potassium (the main issue) comes back stable for a few weeks in a row they start saying ‘ohhh xyz is too low/high though..’ this week it’s calcium, CALCIUM, why is there too much calcium?

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

@yaoitears OHEMGEEE AAAA THANK YOU FOOMFIEEEE!! ^_^ you’re so kind omgomggg THANK YOUUU<33

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

overall I’m not really an insecure person, but I do hate my mouth sometimes 💔 (also I feel like you can see how I’m losing hair on this pic waaaaah kill meeee)

[illy ୨୧ @aborteddd_illy]

@mimiiaow this explains everything 🙀🙀 my theories have been proven gassppp. literally though like T^T?? it’s so strange welp