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20 | self-destructive lesbian | MDNI

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@FROSTBITE3AM they dont wanna admit that theyre an awful person

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@neofoid ive been hearing about porp so much recently, u might be onto something

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the only decent thing abt this platform is that ur able to be relevant without doxxing urself, unlike instagram n other places. i may show myself on here more in the future but its just an option and not a requirement

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@kittytism_ slurps on it

[Arctic @neco_arctic]

It sucks that when you transition you stop getting to feel like one of the few good men that exist and realize that the only reason you were like that is because you were not in fact a man at all, and that yes, men really are like that

[estropup 🏳️‍⚧️ @estropup]

living in the middle of nowhere is so suffocating and lonely, im not sure how anyone enjoys this

[🩶 @nvll_and_v0id]

if you're near a grocery store right now put your penis in the cash register for no reason

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@seafishmoder hope it works out for uu

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@seafishmoder weed is like the only thing that makes me hungry, so if u have access to it, maybe it could help u out too?

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@seafishmoder i started with the same thing too, 1 thing that worked for me was buying bulk candy & getting super high n eating tons of it, obv not the most sustainable but itll give u quick results.. i was 145lbs and now im 165lbs after a few months of that

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@seafishmoder also when u lose bodyfat, u lose it in the order of the oldest first, so all the testosterone fat placement will be the first to go. caffeine helps with suppressing appetite if ur in a period of losing, and for gaining just have stuff with sugar n high calories n stuff

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@seafishmoder i have strange eating habits and a lot of like stomach problems so it may be easier for me to weight cycle than others, but its still def possible i believe in u! u dont have to focus on gaining or losing a certain amount, just have temporary periods of eating more than regular

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@seafishmoder are u on injections? also what dose

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@boyirl841643841 be creative make smth cool like music or art, pour everything into it it might help u

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it feels like my entire body is failing

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nothing feels real. will that ever change

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every time i start to feel better i just get worse again im so fucking pathetic

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so summary is having overlapping depression, gender dysphoria, and adhd that cant be treated because i cant tolerate stimulants, i dont feel like a normal functioning person and i hate myself in so many ways

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there are a lot of awful things about adhd but esp for ppl who cant be medicated, you literally have so little control over your own life.

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people and connect with them. i dont even know how to describe and that makes it so much more difficult to even feel like a person