i want you but for once. i’m going to shut up. do my own thing, let you do yours, and then leave our fate up to the universe because i’m so tired of trying.
in the most selfish way possible, i don’t want anybody else to have your heart, feel your touch, kiss your lips, or be the reason you smile, I want to be your last everything.
i think i hit the point in life where i’m just done. i cried. i tried. but everything is crashing down. my demons are taking over me again and this time I’m too tired to fight back.
everything was starting to go back to normal. i was able to sleep at night. i didn’t have these temptations. i wasn’t sad all the time. i was letting people back into my life. i was ready. i was getting out of that hole. but here we are again.
i’m not even upset, hurt, or angry anymore. i’m just tired of putting in more effort than I receive. i’m tired of holding on for nothing. i’m tired of getting my hopes up only to be let down time and time again.
if you ever see a girl:
• biting her nails
• shaking her leg
• not talking
• zoning out
• fidgeting
• cracking her knuckles
• having her hands on your neck
just give her a hug, she won’t ask for it but she needs it deep down.
everytime my gf gets stressed she grows cute lil plants on her phone :) she’s so wholesome and adorable lol I think I’m in love 😅 she instantly relaxes when she plays :)) link in bio to get it.
you won’t heal until you admit to yourself how much it really hurts. you were let down, disappointed, and it wasn’t your fault. go easy on yourself. allow yourself as much time that you need and feel what you need to feel. don’t let what they did have any more power over you.