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Yet not I,

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I'll trust You, even if it doesn't make sense.

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Parang ayokong kainin...

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True enough that You hear our cries and You know what worries our hearts :'<

The Lord assured me and humbly reminded me through a message I recieved from an ate:

"Deny yourself, take up your cross"

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: I'm afraid of the possibility of forgetting what you look like and how your voice sounds.

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🤍🙏

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Pasensya na sa mga nag sa-suggest ng Queen of Tears :<

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I should learn to say "I'll watch it pag nasa mood na ko"

Nakaka-guilty kasi pag di ko napapanood yung mga sina-suggest sakin.

Regardless kung maganda yung show, if wala ako sa mood or I'm not interested at that time, hindi ko siya ma-aappreciate 🥲

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Pag dumating na yung season niya na yon, I could now say na handa na kong maging genuinely happy for him 🤍

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The day of, hindi ako nasaktan and it felt odd to me.

Akala ko isa yon sa iiyakan ko, but it didn't. I only felt proud and genuinely happy. Umuwi akong magaan yung puso ko. [1]

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Feeling ko strong na ko. Feeling ko healed na. Feeling ko hindi na ko masasaktan.

The day of: [[umiyak]]

KEMME AHHAHAHAHAHA akala mo talaga e.

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My toxic trait: buying dresses na hindi ko sinusuot pag lumalabas ng bahay :'))

I'll try to wear them more often kasi sayang naman. Nag hihinder lang talaga sakin yung risk na mabastos ulit. One time I tried to dress up, nasundan pa ko.

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Grabe, heart filled day

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I needed that cry and all the guidance from the ate's. Thank you Lord :'<

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Why do I allow you to have that kind of power over me?

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@sealynnn Will hug u nang mahigpit (w/ consent) when I see you 🫂

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@JonasJulian

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She's not usually like this kaya na worry ako haha

+ the fact that she talks about True Crime & controversial topics I hope she's not being threatened or hurt by anyone.

I hope you and and ur fam are okay, steph :<<

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Ngayon na lang ulit nag spark parasocial feelings ko.

There's a YouTuber named Stephanie Soo that I've been watching since 2018, malaki na rin naging attachment ko sakanya. Na-concern ako for her these days kasi she hasn't been active in 2 of her accounts for over a week now.

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+Despite their ages: one was a 70+ yrs old tita and one was a 29 yrs old ate.

Minsan di ko na rin alam how I manage to connect with people. Although, not everyone, dahil may mga certain people parin na di ako komportable kausapin hahaha.

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"akala ko kakilala mo yung kausap mo kanina, parang ang tagal niyo na mag kakilala" - Ate Juds

Met two new people today in different circumstances and today lang ulit ako na-affirm na I easily connect with (most) people pala.