Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀

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[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i tweet out my thoughts because my brain has hit maximum capacity on these depressing thoughts

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

the fire alarm went off in my dorm building that really triggered my PTSD

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i crave for the family that believes in me and my dreams

i wish my family liked me

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

im so jealous of the people who can tell their family something exciting, and they care and celebrate them

my friend was calling her mom and telling her about how she got a dance solo and her mom celebrated her
mine wouldve told me its stupid and to invest my time somewhere else

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

my hand hurts so fucking bad
nerve damage is not a joke oml

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

any strong emotion, i cut myself to
extreme happiness, extreme sadness , extreme numbness
i can’t handle my emotions very well. my only good form of regulation is self harm

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i don’t want anyone to be upset over my death
i need them to understand that suicide was my ultimate wish
all i ever wanted was to die
and i’ll become to happy once i commit

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i’m afraid to live
any non-suicidal or hopeful thought scares me
all i’ve known is suicide and ending my life young
continuing forward past that scares me immensely

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

no matter how “happy” or “good” my life gets
i’ll never quit my self harm addiction
it’s a good reminder to know i’m a horrible person and keeps me in check

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

me with my mental breakdown tweets

[url ÿ @urly5k]

when you go back and reread old messages just to get that feeling again

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i feel so incredibly lonely

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i wish i had someone who cared and loved me enough to sit through my silences
and comfort me through my non-verbal periods

[rye @v_osamu]

constantly feeling like everyone hates you or is going to harm you in some way

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i know i should be grateful for attending this summer program but i feel so overwhelmed and lost

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

it’s my first day at my summer program and i feel very lonely
it feels like so many people already made friends and have groups and i’m just there
it’s also going to be a pain to hide my sh from my roommate

[halo 🪽 @cutiebarista123]

wanting to interact with oomfs but being scared of dms

[꒰ S h a r k y ꒱ @Evespeakstome]

how it feels being on shedtwt knowing it's been weeks since I cut and I don't starve anymore

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i’m at work rn and im so tired
i just wanna go home, cut and sleep
i’m so overwhelmed and tired

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i’m so mad this didn’t happen
if only my mom didn’t find my fucking rope, i would’ve been dead by now

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

somewhere between march 30th - april 4th i will kill myself
my hard deadline will be april 6th
it feels nice knowing everything will end soon

[Ace!!「 Rika of shedtwt 」⭐️♠️🎀 @aceventwt]

i’ve gotten progressively more lonely over the past months
i can’t tell if it’s for the best or worst