my longest running fantasy is a blackmail agency. a fake one, obviously. everything is signed, there’s a safeword, and the sub can stop it any time.
but the agency itself would be so organized that it feels completely real. cameras, people following you, someone who knows your schedule better than you do.
you’re sitting in a cafe on an ordinary day. a stranger walks up, sits down across from you and puts a folder on the table. that’s the moment i think about the most.
the paperwork keeps it safe. the feeling of having no way out is the whole point
a few of you keep asking about BM, so here's the answer. I'm not taking it on right now, for a few reasons
it's just boring to me now, most of the secrets people want exposed are so ordinary. If you actually have something that would make me lean forward, tell me. that's the only way I'd come back to it
my longest running fantasy is a blackmail agency. a fake one, obviously. everything is signed, there’s a safeword, and the sub can stop it any time.
but the agency itself would be so organized that it feels completely real. cameras, people following you, someone who knows your schedule better than you do.
you’re sitting in a cafe on an ordinary day. a stranger walks up, sits down across from you and puts a folder on the table. that’s the moment i think about the most.
the paperwork keeps it safe. the feeling of having no way out is the whole point
Why I believe only someone who has come to their “Self” can be a Dominant
Most often we are used to seeing dominance as a role. Anyone can play it: put on an image, learn a script, be convincing. For that you need neither a Self nor a worked-through shadow.
Dominance as inner power is the calm ability to hold the frame, not need approval, not snap, and not use another person to fill your own gaps. This kind is almost impossible without shadow work. If you don’t know your dark parts, they control you from under the table:
• unlived weakness turns into cruelty, because you need to prove you’re strong;
• an unacknowledged need for control makes a person anxious and quick-tempered;
• unprocessed resentment secretly picks a “victim” and takes revenge on them;
• the need for admiration makes a Dominant dependent on the submissive, which means subordinate in reverse.
Someone who doesn’t live on autopilot of their own parts is the one who can truly dominate another. The shadow you can’t see gets projected onto others.
Why I believe only someone who has come to their “Self” can be a Dominant
Most often we are used to seeing dominance as a role. Anyone can play it: put on an image, learn a script, be convincing. For that you need neither a Self nor a worked-through shadow.
Dominance as inner power is the calm ability to hold the frame, not need approval, not snap, and not use another person to fill your own gaps. This kind is almost impossible without shadow work. If you don’t know your dark parts, they control you from under the table:
• unlived weakness turns into cruelty, because you need to prove you’re strong;
• an unacknowledged need for control makes a person anxious and quick-tempered;
• unprocessed resentment secretly picks a “victim” and takes revenge on them;
• the need for admiration makes a Dominant dependent on the submissive, which means subordinate in reverse.
Someone who doesn’t live on autopilot of their own parts is the one who can truly dominate another. The shadow you can’t see gets projected onto others.
my longest running fantasy is a blackmail agency. a fake one, obviously. everything is signed, there’s a safeword, and the sub can stop it any time.
but the agency itself would be so organized that it feels completely real. cameras, people following you, someone who knows your schedule better than you do.
you’re sitting in a cafe on an ordinary day. a stranger walks up, sits down across from you and puts a folder on the table. that’s the moment i think about the most.
the paperwork keeps it safe. the feeling of having no way out is the whole point
Don’t worry,
I won’t destroy you, I’ll just fix you
I know your mind like a forest path I’ve walked for years. I’ll find every wrong line of code and you won’t resist, you simply never wanted to
Stay still and breathe slower. That’s the first line I found