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my unsent messages

[s @aerizev]

so you’re stalking me lol hi ***

[s @aerizev]

vced a guy after a full month of no contact and holy shit i feel sick i cant do this

[s @aerizev]

nvm i failed

[s @aerizev]

ending myself now i cant do this

[s @aerizev]

finally got them im gonna get back into sh #shtwt

[s @aerizev]

i miss you so much but i never want to talk to you again (i do)

[s @aerizev]

when it starts hitting me even when im out doing things to distract myself so ik its cooked

[s @aerizev]

@Renukadevi67155 tysm

[s @aerizev]

i wish you still loved me

[s @aerizev]

@Renukadevi67155 too much to fully explain ngl but its okay

[s @aerizev]

i dont get it sigh

[s @aerizev]

every time you did something bad to me i still loved you but when i hang around one person you dont like and haven’t even met before you stop loving me?

[s @aerizev]

no one will ever understand how much love i hold for you. not even you would understand

[s @aerizev]

do i ever cross your mind

[s @aerizev]

do you even care for me anymore like you said you would?

[s @aerizev]

i miss how we were in the beginning of it all

[s @aerizev]

i miss you so much but then the thought of us talking again genuinely makes me feel so sick. i’ve never felt this way before it leaves me so confused

[s @aerizev]

if you do actually see my posts or stalk my account i do apologize for posting about you. i just know i’ll never be able to fully let go and i know it would be wrong to break no contact. i think about you every single day i still love you

[s @aerizev]

although you have someone else now it makes me extremely happy you’ve lived this long. long enough to turn 18 i couldnt help but to cry all yesterday morning just thinking about it. i feel so proud of you i wish i could just tell you this straight up

[s @aerizev]

i still remember just a year ago today i was writing out your birthday paragraph every single chance i had from not being busy. it upsets me i wont be able to send the one i had already begun writing out. it sucks i wont be there with you for it this year.