i have been a part of the one direction community since i was 13. i am 26 now. for half of my life, they have been a vital part in my life. i am sending love to all my one direction girlies right now who, like me, are navigating the news and processing their feelings.
it felt like we never got closure for 1d ending bc they promised they'd be back. even though i've moved on from the band in a lot of ways, it always felt like i was waiting for something to give me that closure. and now i know that whatever i was waiting for will never come.
Maybe you don't get it but after growing up with 1D, you just kind of expect to grow old with them... they should be 80 and still jumping on stage and we should be 60-80 buying tickets to their concerts. I refuse to believe we just lost a family member at 31. Absolutely f REFUSE
The One Direction joint statement including Zayn just shook me to my core.. I never would've imagined this would be the way they were all communicating with each other again
He spent 14 years trying to keep this fandom together and happy, supported his bandmates and then passed away alone, unintentionally & unaware of what he was doing. Yes I am f heartbroken, devastated, could throw up from pain but also refuse to accept that he's gone. F u universe
man. it feels so weird being in your 20s mourning a celebrity who you once grew up with. shaped your teenage hood and you made life long friends out of. at the same time not excusing who he became but also trying to grieve who he once was.