I hope one day I’m able to speak to my friends as myself. I hope one day I can actually open up. Because this might be the most miserable I’ve ever been
I wish I could just suck up this stupid pride and get myself a therapist or meds or whatever the fuck but I’ll never do that despite how long I’ve let myself get worse and worse. But I got no one else to blame for any of it so wah wah I shall
Sometimes I wish I didn’t have hopes and aspirations, friends and family just so I could actually fucking do it with zero regrets. But I have them. And I’ll never fucking pull that trigger. But by god, I’m not your strongest soldier