‘Talk to someone’
What people don’t always understand is that depression comes in stages.
There is a stage where you still have the mental capacity to reach out. In that phase, talking to someone can genuinely help, sometimes it can even pull you back from the edge.
Then there is another stage where suicidal thoughts begin to surface, but a thin thread of hope still exists. This is the stage where people tweet cryptic message ‘bye guys. I tried my best’ or even text friends in the middle of a suicide attempt. A part of them is still hoping someone will notice and arrive early enough to pull the rope away. Many attempts at this stage end up failing, precisely because that hope hasn’t completely died.
And then there is the final stage of depression, THE MOST DANGEROUS ONE. At this point, the person does not want to be saved. They leave no clues, no messages, no room for interruption. There is no call for help. No one knows anything is wrong until they are gone.
In that stage, the person can still laugh with you, joke with you, and appear happy and bubbly. Nothing about them looks broken, so no one thinks to check or tries to stop them.
‘Talk to someone’ ends after the first two stages.
You’re 6 months away from a completely different life. If you feel like a failure right now - use that. Let it fuel you. Make the decision TODAY. Look yourself in the mirror and refuse to accept another day of this. Lock in for 6 months. No excuses, no breaks, no negotiations. Commit so hard that your doubts start running from you, Work so relentlessly that your fears become terrified of you.
Depression goes beyond just talking to someone. At some point, even the people that say you can talk to them will get tired and it doesn’t even make them bad people.
I hate it too. Poverty is a psychological trap. It creates constant stress, kills patience, shrinks vision, and convinces people they’re powerless. What looks like poor choices is often a brain stuck in survival mode.