Aiden

24. shedtwt. OCD, MDD, BED.
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[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Taking my adhd meds and on my way to the gym to do steady state cardio whilst 5 days into a fast. I hope my body realises it has more than enough fat to cope.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Onto day 5 of this fast, still not feeling too bad, I do need to go to the gym today tho so that might change quite quickly 😅

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

@potentiallyIll Yep, I had lost 110lbs and I've now regained 88lbs, and never saw a difference. There obviously was one, clothes was the obvious tell but how I actually saw myself, there was no difference.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Had a look on losertown and I could be close back to my lw by my next show at uni if I lock tf in.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Gonna aim to keep this fast going now till Saturday - going to a pride event and it'd be nice if I hit my next gw first.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

I had to sit there and think when had I actually last eaten, and it was Saturday evening I last had. I even went to the gym earlier this evening and was confused as to why it all felt shit, well that explains it.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Just realised when I coughed a bit too hard and my vision went black that I've done an unintentional 3 day fast. Food has been the last fucking thing on my mind. Ive been dry heaving and throwing up bile every morning for the last week and a bit which doesn't help.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

New hypo didn't happen, my sister ended up calling me, did manage some styros tho.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Been long enough since I last did a deep dermis/hypodermis cut that I can have bath tonight. Then I'll do a new hypodermis cut 👍.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Tried two of the new blades the other day, it was like a taster pack so full of different brands, well the first one I used was fucking shit and the 2nd not much better, hoping some of the others will be more promising

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Bought more again yesterday, handed them all over to my counsellor this morning then bought more on my way home, wtf is wrong with me

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

I did not end up trying them, I instead ended up buying more p@racetam0l, not gonna od just yet, see how I feel in a couple of weeks.
I am gonna try the new blades today tho. Couldn't be arsed with the clean up yesterday so just did a bit of lig.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

New blades arrived 🥳🥳 gonna try them tomorrow.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

New blades arrived 🥳🥳 gonna try them tomorrow.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Thighs - lowkey sad with how little fresh I've got at the moment, I think my od a couple of weeks ago really helped quieten my head and I keep thinking about doing it again. But really the only reason I have so little fresh is cos I'm almost out of blades.

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Scar check - been a hot second since I last posted so.

Think I've lost all fucks about new scarring 😅

Right arm

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Left arm - this was always my arm with the most scarring but I've been trying to even it out with my right arm

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

I wanted to get both the white and milk choc oreo ones cos they're my faves but the milk choc oreo one was £5 more expensive 😅

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

Since I've got no appetite (easy protein, cos I'm not a fan of the texture of most shakes but I like these)

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

@questus_melior She moved out at 18 and never looked back, I moved out at 19 and had to move back in w/ my mum just before my 21st, moved out again at 23 to attempt uni again and at this rate looks like I'll be moving back in with my mum

[Aiden @aiden_it7]

@questus_melior Feel this I'm 24, my lil sister is 21 and she's got a partner, a kid, a car, a house (rented but still) and im over here attempting uni for a 2nd time and currently failing, with her hand me down car that my mum pays the insurance for, questioning if I'll be accepted into 3rd yr