▪️maruki

a years old portrayal returned — dorian

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

> maruki is in a situation where he has somewhat of a backbone until you are at all physically close to him

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

[ he may not be fully removed from what happened to him, but he had spent years specifically trying to avoid this scenario happening again. avoid giving in ]

I... I miss you, I shouldn't have left without a word, but I don't have to do that.

[ breathe ]

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

[ for a moment, he seems tempted. anything for this to stop, for a moment to breathe and collect himself ]

I'm... I'm not that same person. I'm not doing that.

[ maruki seems to brace for whatever outcome his words may have, terrified but attempting resilience ]

[➤ 𝓑𝐔𝐑𝐍 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙇͟𝙀͟𝙏͟𝙏͟𝙀͟𝙍͟?͟ @HUNGERXI]

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( * For a beat he remains silent, sparing no semblance of emotion as Maruki pleads and desperately implores his for reprieve. Adachi seems almost wearied, profoundly estranged from the figure before him. )

( * Stepping back, he nonchalantly rolls his shoulders,

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[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

> oh boy it's happening again! /aff

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

I suppose I'll give it a try!

[ᴋᴀɴᴏɴ ☆ ʏᴀᴇᴋᴏ @FriskyTheatrics]

Splurging on a mattress couldn’t hurt!

I know I haven’t regretted getting one yet…my back would’ve said something otherwise, ahaha…

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

It... it was, I think. It was relaxing, at the very least.

I think it was certainly being away, but perhaps I should inquire about their bed set-up. Or perhaps just getting a bed.

Maybe it's just my futon.

[ᴋᴀɴᴏɴ ☆ ʏᴀᴇᴋᴏ @FriskyTheatrics]

You make it sound so fancy! Then again, any vacation at the right time can be downright 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙡𝙮.

I wonder, was it being away that made you sleep better, or was it just the mattress…?

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

Ahahah... indeed, indeed.

It is what it is! I might simply have been spoiled by the sort of sleep you can only get on a wellness retreat! After that, an apartment can hardly compare.

[ᴋᴀɴᴏɴ ☆ ʏᴀᴇᴋᴏ @FriskyTheatrics]

Your brain should really start minding its manners then!

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

Ah, no, please don't worry about that! Not at all.

It must just be the unfamiliar situation — I've been away for years now, it's no surprise that my brain is shocked that I'm back.

[ᴋᴀɴᴏɴ ☆ ʏᴀᴇᴋᴏ @FriskyTheatrics]

It wasn’t all the nightmare talk, was it?

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

Oh, a bad night's sleep. Ugh.

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

"I completely understand. Have a safe journey home and, please, feel free to get into contact with any further questions or bookings."

He stands, smiling, and bows slightly, finding himself still apologetic for his outburst.

Was he still so affected by those thoughts?

[ᴋᴀɴᴏɴ ☆ ʏᴀᴇᴋᴏ @FriskyTheatrics]

“It’s already been that long? 𝙔𝙚𝙚𝙨𝙝…”

She chugs what remains of her water in one swift motion, pocketing the crackers for later.

“I think I’ll leave the rest for next time—seems like the better call, anyway!”

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

[ he's bought alcohol, but it's just a precaution - what if someone who drinks comes over? ]

[ he assures himself as much ]

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

> i cant believe i made a kin list what has become of me

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

"Now, we don't have too long left, but I don't want to cut things off too early. Is there anything in particular you want to ask about, raise or end things off with?"

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

"I'm glad to hear that it feels like it's working. Of course, only time will tell, but I hope that you will be able to gain a better grasp over your worries and how to resolve them over time."

He smiles, and takes another drink of his glass. It's nearly empty.

[ᴋᴀɴᴏɴ ☆ ʏᴀᴇᴋᴏ @FriskyTheatrics]

“I-I’ll, uh…try to keep a journal about it then. But, you shouldn’t be apologizing…we’re only getting somewhere thanks to you asking, right?”

It’s certainly better than meandering for an answer.

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[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

@HUNGERXI > honk shoo moment

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

> for those who want a better feel of my vibes i recently made a https://t.co/MLnkCpMNKj and icl i love it

https://t.co/nvcMIZwvsW

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

[ maruki is proudly a loser ]

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

> i can yap for days about ai the somnium files. in fact, let me yap. please. ple

[▪️maruki @aiidentities]

[ maruki is trying his hardest to remember that he's sober now ]