ive been so incredibly anxious hqving panic attacks constantly im trying to stay consistent on my meds and i havent drank in like over a week cuz weed has been doing me alright but i also havent been able to stop thinking about dxm recently and will probably be doing yhat soon
i havent been posting ive been in a weird state of getting way worse to the point of like semi recovering that makes no sense but ive been doing so absolutely horribly that all i can think is i dont want to live this way if ill be stuck here on earth forever
i do have my stash of extras obviously so ill still have some for whenever i want it but when i got taken off sertraline i just abused that crazy style and it didnt even give me any effects like weight loss i just wanted to die and im scared i might do that again and waste them
also im supposed to call psychiatrist to set up an appointment so my worker can be there and advocate for a med change but i just realized that means ill be taken off my meds and my meds make me not hungry and i dont want that gone ill probably try to get on adhd meds
charges possibly dropped next month or the month after ? 🤔 and i just found out you can request to have your stored records and fingerprints destroyed after that happens me thinks i may do that
im such w loser my mom is the only person i hang out with i have no friends i need someone to drink in the park with at night and the fact that the only person i know whod be willing is a 12 year old makes me even more of a loser doesnt it gosh just take me out back and shoot me