The only reason people think my sweetness is fake is because they use their whimsy as a weapon to do underhanded manipulative shit. Of course you didn't trust me. You thought I was like YOU.
I stayed with a man who was half ready. I hoped. I waited. I extended grace. I tried to meet him where he was instead of honoring where I was. Over time, his lack of readiness pulled me out of my character. I became reactive. I became hardened. I started responding in ways that were not aligned with who I am. That is what misalignment does. It erodes you.
I’ve come to terms with the fact that I really am allowed to feel however I want to feel about any situation, without anyone else having to understand why I feel the way I do.
Dear Santa,
• At least 6'1
• opens the door
• goes out of his way to make me happy
• plan dates & buy me flowers without asking (bare minimum)
• emotionally intelligent
• obsessed with me
• can't breathe without me
• provider, rich & soft spoken
i think stressing over a man is pointless. the choices they make are completely out of your control & their behavior has nothing to do with you. all you can do is pray that God allows the right partner into your life & drag anyone who doesn't care for you properly out
When I was younger, I thought I needed a partner as deep as me… oceanic… endless. Now I know my spirit thrives w/ someone who can hold my waters, NOT mirror them. My depth doesn’t need a twin tide; it needs a steady shore.