Thoughts flooding my mind like a swarm of bees. Its quiet yet its so loud inside my head. And i dont know how to deal with it. I used to just stream whenever this happens. Maybe sometimes it just doesnt work.
But this is just me in my own head. I’m not complaining, i’m trying to justify myself to my own self if that makes any sense. Again, thank you for reading.
If you are reading, thank you for reading my rants. I wrote this while im lying in bed. Feeling all melo. I watch lots of movies and dramas, excuse me for being dramatic. I know some will say, talk with my friends. I did, i do, i will and i would. I know they’d understand.
If you are reading, thank you for reading my rants. I wrote this while im lying in bed. Feeling all melo. I watch lots of movies and dramas, excuse me for being dramatic. I know some will say, talk with my friends. I did, i do, i will and i would. I know they’d understand.
in between because i get scared of “what if, i too dum that can’t solved the puzzle”. “What if, i’m not capable”, “what if, i do not posses the IQ to complete the game”. So many of them playing in my head in repeat, i think about it till i get exhausted/sleep.
in between because i get scared of “what if, i too dum that can’t solved the puzzle”. “What if, i’m not capable”, “what if, i do not posses the IQ to complete the game”. So many of them playing in my head in repeat, i think about it till i get exhausted/sleep.
Honestly speaking. I’m jealous that i do know posses the ability the knowledge to have talent. I am just me. People tell me, “that’s okay”, “be yourself”. Reality is i want to be better but i’m scared. I can’t even bring myself to complete a gameplay without taking a long break
Honestly speaking. I’m jealous that i do know posses the ability the knowledge to have talent. I am just me. People tell me, “that’s okay”, “be yourself”. Reality is i want to be better but i’m scared. I can’t even bring myself to complete a gameplay without taking a long break
so vulnerable to myself to the point that i pretty sure i’m in denial thinking that i never amount to anything. Then it hit me, i’m holding myself back due to anxiety, due to believing that i did this to myself. In the end, there’s no one to blame but myself.
so vulnerable to myself to the point that i pretty sure i’m in denial thinking that i never amount to anything. Then it hit me, i’m holding myself back due to anxiety, due to believing that i did this to myself. In the end, there’s no one to blame but myself.
I felt like maybe i should quit. Maybe i’m just not cut out to be a vtuber, I think i’m an okay streamer, and i know i have a lot, a lot of short comings. I left so many uncompleted incomplete gameplays, i couldn’t finish it due to my own unsolved resolved. My indecisive made me
I felt like maybe i should quit. Maybe i’m just not cut out to be a vtuber, I think i’m an okay streamer, and i know i have a lot, a lot of short comings. I left so many uncompleted incomplete gameplays, i couldn’t finish it due to my own unsolved resolved. My indecisive made me
I’m suppose to start a new phase into my stream/video game content. Currently taking a short break after grinding DBD riffpass and OW battlepass. So i’ve been on social media (mainly tiktok) a lot. I’ve seen so many, so much of new talents, new vtuber and they are so talented.
I’m suppose to start a new phase into my stream/video game content. Currently taking a short break after grinding DBD riffpass and OW battlepass. So i’ve been on social media (mainly tiktok) a lot. I’ve seen so many, so much of new talents, new vtuber and they are so talented.
The voice of envy is something else. I found myself feeling jealous over other streamer talents. Whereas i dont have any. All i know it to talk to people.
Genuinely thought we’d be playing the current 2v8 at nostromo wreckage map only and meeting xenomorph as 1 or even as both killer (as the current 2v8 icon implied). Meeting wesker & nemesis is more common. Why?? Idk. #deadbydaylight#2v8#thexenomorph They didnt do him justice.
If you read this, I'd be happy if you read the whole thing.
Hololive English came into being just about 6 years ago...wow, how time flies.
We've done and accomplished so much together. There were a lot of mountains we climbed, back when there were just 5 of us. And then our numbers grew! We were 6, then 11...eventually 20 at one point. But the thing that never changed, was that we struggled together as a group and pushed through those times, together. There were so many hellos and goodbyes, and we shared all of them as one entity.
As the very first talent to ever debut from that group, it's an odd feeling saying a final goodbye to the name "Hololive English." And things will look different on the outside, for sure. They may even BE different, but I choose to view it in a positive way, as that is all I can do. In my heart, we are always Hololive English- the same English speaking group that came together to challenge the boundaries beyond Japan, to promote a space where creators like us could thrive!! I think we did a really great job of that. And not just HoloEN; our friends in HoloID as well are to be included in that sentiment.
But from here on out, now is the beginning of a new journey where we can push past the barriers of language and become even closer with our JP and ID friends as one whole "Hololive." Regardless of what words we speak. This is my greatest hope! The mission to spread Hololive globally does not end here at all. It continues, with great force, even!! I think we'll just do it in a more unified way. And I'd love to communicate even further with JP dead beats as well- so many new friends and faces, waiting to be met, even now!!
The main takeaway, however, is this: I will always look out for our international members, without exception. If we are to be joined by more someday, I will treat them as not only Hololive, but will look after them the same was as I have EN. Even if they are not called that. That's just how I'm doing things!!!
I will stay positive and continue to smile as I race to achieve my ultimate goals, with the same friends I've always stood beside!! Thank you, Hololive!! Thank you, dead beats!!
An exciting future together yet awaits, I just know it.
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