First half of the year was overwhelming. One point I had my life all planned out, thinking marriage and all, the next moment, I am listening to counseling from my pastor on how to heal. The reason? Someone I spent about 3 years building together, trusting and being completely....
Used my HMO for a comprehensive body checkup and for the first time I appreciated the place of HMO
Anywheres glad to announce that I've been given a clean bill of health as against same time last year I was seriously down
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... that capacity to love, to commit, and to dream still belongs to me.
Right now, a whole lot is happening, I go through my snapchat menories and the chats media and I smile because I loved and gave it my all. This comforts me and I know that I did my best. I am picking up...
...and that humans Will be humans! Prone to disappointment and betrayals!
With all the chaos and hurt I felt, one truth still stands out, the strength it took to build, love and trust someone for those three years didn't vanish when they left...
.. realize that grief can be loud. I go over the final chats and texts again and I see that where there was a semblance of love, it's the indepth desire to inflict damage more with words. I log out and face the reality that life doesn't go as planned...
...open with decided to walk away over something we've always spoken about. The shift from thinking long term marriage to thinking where it all went down is a heavy jarring pivot. I pride myself in being able to walk away but oh boy, it was one of those period you really....