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edtwt ♡ 21 ♡ pro recovery ♡ bmi 15s

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my bfs thigh circumference is more than my waist

luv being skinny gf jacked bf

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i don’t feel disordered, im not constantly consumed by thoughts of food like i used to be and im maintaining my weight without much effort but i avoid stuff that i think will make me gain weight and refuse to return to a “healthy” bmi

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edtwt i hv a question

if im no longer thinking about food everyday / actively restricting, but am maintaining at my gw (bmi 15s) and refuse to gain / “recover”, am i disordered or

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Even tho I don’t consider myself disordered currently (I don’t rly think ab food/exercise at all and j do whatever, not trying to actively lose weight) I still want to be small so it made me happy asf lol

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Bf was talking about how he’s into slender girls but not skeletal and that if I looked skeletal it would be less attractive and I asked for an example
And he referenced a pic

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And then I told him i weigh the same as I did then (if not less) and he said I look healthier now so i went and took a pic with the same pose and sent it and he admitted I look even skinnier now

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Ok edtwt im inactive asf here mainly cos i recovered pretty much but ended up hitting my gw anyways 😵‍💫😀Life is so funny sometimes

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now im at my gw (not my ugw but im happy here for now) and i eat whatever i want and i don’t exercise and im not gaining weight and im so happy

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i feel like i beat my ed in the best way possible

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i forced myself to stop weighing myself and counting calories and it was rlly difficult at first but eventually i got there but instead of gaining weight back i actually lost it without meaning to

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i need to take time off edtwt honestly .. like it would be so good for me

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want legs like these

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@existentialasf yes!

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getting to the stage where i feel 700-800 net cals is too much.. gotta remind myself it’s still a deficit and i physically cant gain fat unless my net cals is at least 1100 (my bmr)

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i need to get a tan

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@mirubunnie so r u!!

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@mirubunnie you remind me of pamibaby

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it’s very obvious when u first get it but after the swelling goes down (1 week) it won’t look unnatural if u get 1 ml or less

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@afterhours_bea @pantamyyy i’ve been losing the most consistently doing high res, and haven’t binged in months - slow consistent progress also makes life more enjoyable than extreme res (which i used to do and led to a 6 month binge/overeating cycle)