@onlyyagirl_ Oh it was comprehensible to me alright :( I remember hating my birthday and xmas even though I got presents, but I would cry after because none of them were things I ever wanted or even liked. And I used to hate myself and think I was this insanely spoiled brat bc of it too
This is actually so heartbreaking and kinda traumatizing like the pain of being not seen and not known by your own parents as a kid is actually such a strange unique kind of pain and kind of incomprehensible for your brain at that age
And it’s not as if kulang ako sa socialization kasi iniisched ko naman sadyang 😭😭😭!!! Birdies gala used to be enough pang-reset ko pero now ☹️☹️ sorry birdies. It’s not me, it’s not u, it’s up
Girl i cant even cry these days kasi ganun na ako kadesensitized. Tuwing magccall kami ng mga kaibigan ko (usually nmn si kelly) dahil ramdam nilang stressed ako, parang nalulumbay nalang ako habang call 😅😅