No one will tell you about the painful part after you choose yourself. Fighting your mind from overwhelming your heart with the question. Why not me? And shitty enough you don’t need to know or understand the answer to move on. You just do.
In the end, I just wanted to feel like a priority. Not everytime just once. Understandably, no one is wrong for their choices. For what it’s worth, it was nice and although I’d like to hold this moment forever. I have to go against the grain and choose myself, because you didn’t.
The process is scary, unclear, and fucking confusing. But you owe it to your inner child to find out everything you are on the other side of what’s unpredictable.
You can do hard things
A friend told me he is 27 and he’s never had a boyfriend, that I am lucky I am able to say I have 2 exes because he has never experienced loved. Somehow I had never realized in a weird way I was lucky to have experience heartbreaks.
The worst part is that I understand why you are behaving this way and made the choice you did. Saddens me that someone that deserves a golden standard love chooses to walk away
I’m going to take a page from your book and use the only action I’ve observed did spell from your character . I guess feeling comfortable trumps my existence to you. We are passed believing in the good cause being enough.
I HOPE YOU never have to look adversity in the face and make a stomach knot choice to leave your entire, not just your city or state, world you have only known to exist in. To be able to provide the very basic needs and safety for your family above your own pain
It didn’t take much to see that a promise for money that does not exist yet can hold a heavier value than your neighbors life. Built on sacrifice from stepping into a world not taught to navigate.