The way the problem isn’t even that they’re fat or black or any of that. It’s that the art is fucking ugly. Fat people and black people can be attractive and feminine and cute, you don’t have to make them look like my uncle
People with abandonment trauma will very much overthink stuff like this. I've done this, I will likely do it more in the future, and sometimes it is just as it seems from that perspective, but make sure to analyse your situations well. I know the struggle, you're not alone <3