j ★

serial cryer who says dumb shit

[j ★ @alienscave]

“Tell me you love me, at least,” he said quietly. “Please. I need to know that somebody does.”

[j ★ @alienscave]

I hate my brain and I want to bash my skull through a fucking window

[j ★ @alienscave]

I’m so tired of being alive

[j ★ @alienscave]

I need to man the fuck ip and talk to people but it’s so difficult when you’re convinced every part of you is unlovable 😭 kms

[j ★ @alienscave]

one of these days I’ll just go to sleep and never wake up. I’m waiting for it.

[j ★ @alienscave]

suicide calling to me like the green goblin mask daily lol

[j ★ @alienscave]

trying to fix myself is so hard when death looks so much easier.

[j ★ @alienscave]

@pinkbeysment and I just know you were partaking in these voicemails and threatening a baby’s life. your parents need to limit your screen time fr

[j ★ @alienscave]

@pinkbeysment @dailydoseofmanz the psych ward is calling your name!

[j ★ @alienscave]

anything with a family dynamic in it where they obviously care about their child is actually killing me inside rn

[j ★ @alienscave]

atp it feels more like I’m just waiting for the day I’m confident enough to actually k*ll myself rather than working towards not wanting to do it at all. I don’t feel important to anyone. I wish I didn’t exist.

[j ★ @alienscave]

when will I finally sleep and not wake up

[j ★ @alienscave]

genuinely why do I even try? even when I tell them something they act like they don’t know who I am

[j ★ @alienscave]

I think if I wasn’t such a pussy I would’ve driven my car into the river by now

[j ★ @alienscave]

maybe next christmas will be good (I’ve been telling myself this for three years)

[j ★ @alienscave]

I think I’m actually going crazy. Why do I feel so fucking lonely?

[j ★ @alienscave]

I need this to pass instantly. I can’t do this. Even when everything is objectively good, it feels like something is always looming around the corner. Like I’m going to fuck up.

[j ★ @alienscave]

everything about me feels so wrong. Too short, too soft and round. it actually makes me sick sometimes lol

[j ★ @alienscave]

I would kill to have been born in a different body.

[j ★ @alienscave]

I need February to hurry the fuck up. I’ve never felt so empty in my life.