kel ⋆ relapsing :/

☆ fatphobes dni

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

fem presenting behavior is playing heavy rock and screamo for a few minutes before going into a gas station alone so bitches know what’s up before messing with me

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

me vs getting up and walking around my apartment while watching tiktoks (i love living alone <3)

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

im averagespo rn, but gimme like a month to lose at least 7kgs and ill be thinsp0 i promise u i have the proportions for it and EVERYTHING

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

praying i can survive like 2 hours of rock climbing on an empty stomach

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

hopefully going rock climbing with my friend (?) and hopefully he’ll want something low cal after

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

because dear gods, if i see a stranger and think that aphrodite must want her dead, then maybe, hopefully, someone will do the same to me.

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

sometimes, very briefly, i remember that everyone does not see me as i see myself and that’s a comforting thought.

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

i like to hope that im able to be a kind soul and a caring presence and a nice memory and a split second of “oh my god, there is beauty on earth.”

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

im gonna guesstimate 1.1k cals for today? gonna try not to eat at all tmrw but my friend is coming to town so we’ll see

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

threw out the rest of the ice cream too.

[lila 𐐪𐑂 @lilach3rry]

2024: evolve or repeat

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

i am more powerful than my hunger

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

every1 be proud of me, i started emotionally eating, was planning on eating an entire thing of ice cream but i stopped myself :>

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

me when i lose 8.3lbs/almost 4kg in a week and a day

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

depression kicking in after spending all day deep cleaning my apartment. like. what’s next.

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

im gonna go get hair dye, and then go home, get h!gh as SHIT, and re-dye my hair

[kel ⋆ relapsing :/ @alivebyforce]

i literally sound like such shit rn