Everything is just numb. How I feel and the emotions I have are numb. I know it would hurt the people that love me or care about me but I’m just genuinely tired of dealing with life at this point.
I just genuinely don’t want to be here anymore. Everything has gone to shit. My belief in attending medical school. My past two long term relationships have cheated on me. I miscarried. My finances are shit. Worst of all, I can’t feel any of the love of my friends and family…….
And he wasn’t there. He should’ve been there. But he didn’t love me anymore. Told me that I wasn’t the person he was supposed to be with. Where does that leave me in all of this? Why did this have to happen.
Him: “Was the miscarriage really the worst pain you’ve felt in your life? Even worse than when you were in the hospital in high school?” Yes. I wasn’t just dealing with the physical pain, it was the mental pain on top of it. The emotions combined with it genuinely ruined me.
I am taking a year off of dating 💀 this one was too much. I really thought he was the one. But, according to him he “has a really strong intuition” that I’m not his person and he doesn’t love me romantically anymore so…..
Fuckkk mercury retrograde. Currently going through a break in my relationship rn even though we live together. I just found out I had a chemical pregnancy. And school is kicking me in the ass rn. The only good news is that I got a job as a medical scribe full time 😀
I DONT CARE that sabrina doesn’t like yodeling
I DONT CARE that chappell roan dislikes children
I DONT CARE that taylor swift is overrated
im so against holding women to a ten fold higher standard when chris brown is being nominated for grammys and kanye is selling our stadiums