MEL-ED

not in need of saving. 5'6 - 116.5 and dropping. avi is me.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

Fell asleep with a pillow between my thighs to keep out the reminder that they touch now.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

This roller coaster of sadness has to end.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

This is the worst date night ever. Especially the part where there was no date and I'm laying on my floor staring at the ceiling.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

Maybe if I buy a scale and step on it every day I won't underestimate how big I actually am.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I'm such a disgusting piece of shit.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I look like all of the moms that I've always refused to look like

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I'm back. Fatter and angrier than ever. How did I get here? How do I get back?

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

Gym tip: use the benches for social media browsing, not the equipment. K thanks

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I can't believe I ever let my self go

[EMMAciated @bloodandbones12]

Eating disorder awareness week. I wonder... RT if you do too. I love you all so much.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I hate people.

[☾ @disintegrxting]

In my mind:

Healthy weight = fat, disgusting, huge, failure, unsuccessful, worthless, average, ugly, weak and gross.

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I can't even hug my kids without being swallowed by anxiety.

[🏴‍☠️ @wavesofdoubt]

How many calories does rolling around in bed burn?

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

I'm so scared to weigh myself. 😔

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

Bought new ankle weights and ran six miles.

[☾ @disintegrxting]

Me:

*triggers MYSELF so I can lose weight faster*

[MEL-ED @AlohomoraMel]

So hungry.

[☾ @disintegrxting]

July:

The month where I WILL lose the most weight I ever have. The month where I will NOT binge once. The month when I will get skinny.