EMMAciated

email: [email protected] 27. Ana with mia tendencies. self harm. 5ft 4inches HW:122 lbs CW:111.6 lbs LW:75 lbs *avi is me*

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My best friend betrayed me and turned my other best friend against me with a bunch of made up lies. I’ve never felt so alone and desperate in my life.

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@SmickiSmick Thank you for caring. I don’t have anyone in real life who cares. I’m so done.

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Okay I’m literally going to kill myself within the next 2 days. I am so fucking done. I cannot believe this shit

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@PerfectAndThin I don’t know what to do. I cannot take it much longer

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@SickenBelow I’m dreading it. Doctors said if I don’t go I’ll be dead by December bc of my body killing me or they know I’ll kill myself before... thanks though 🖤

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Guess who has to go to rehab againnnnnnn. Literally fuck my life.

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Sometimes it's as if I can shrink away to nothing. Sometimes I feel as pure and perfect as a ghost. The hunger, the headaches, the dizziness—these are the only things that are real.

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Drinking laxative tea and tanning like a fat whale in my backyard.

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I can’t wait to fucking end it all in June. The date is set.

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Do you ever want to kill yourself so badly that you can’t function?? Bc same.

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Well, tonight was a great night to lose my old best friend 👍🏻 oh, and of course it is all my fault

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Just tried to reach out to my supposed “BFF” to talk over text or phone and she literally responded like such bs. I’m sorry but I’m just trying to have an honest convo and she is tip toeing around it and doesn’t care about me at all....

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Lately I’ve been waking up like “I feel so skinny!” “Today I am going to see a difference on the scale!” And then I get on and I’m like 1 lb less than the day before 😭🤦🏻‍♀️

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I’m supposed to be on a zoom meeting with friends, but I can’t go on bc I haven’t talked to one of the girls in over a month...so weird bc she was my BFF...idk what is going on. Probably just going to cut my wrist and drink alone.

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Just found the best place to take body check pics in my bedroom 😍ahhhhhh is only I were skinny

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You can't be bothered to go on living-but you're expected to get all energetic and move furniture/stand on chairs/hoist ropes/kick stools from under you and mess around with hot baths/razor blades. Suicide was all complicated, often involving visits to hardware shops.

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Idk who to even open up to anymore. I want rod die/my ex is killing me and has been for 10+ years, but nobody cares anymore. Smh. I really should jus kill myself.

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I want to kill myslef right now. Idk what else to do.

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Considering going back to rehab this summer 😬 half of me is like “bitch fucking get out of here and gooooo” and the other half is like “bitch wtf is wrong with you?!?!?!”

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All my ed friends and I are like dropping weight like mfer’s doing various grad dissertations 😅 #livingmybestlife but also dying...