mother soap

listen to my music✨

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

i think i suck and should quit
music for good because i’m horrible at performing and i hate being perceived by anyone anyways so why tf do i still want to try

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

wtf is even reality anymore

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

lately i’ve been feeling like i’m losing the fight, i feel heavy. half the world believes i’m sick but how can i be sick when half the world is also dying of hunger?

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

literally high on life rn

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

i’m so lucky everything works out for me

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

this music thing is stressful bc wtf do i do for a campaign bruh😭

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the fact is i know i’m stunning but nobody else seems to agree

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

my need for validation is unattractive but also caring whether or not people will find that attractive is also not my problem ykwim

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

i’ve been so depressed i swear it’s the weather

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

just applied to work at chanel and hermes bc why tf not 🤷🏻‍♀️

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

vowing to never work another black friday

not even an hour in and i’m exhausted lmao

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

bro my temptation to die rn is a lil too great

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

i was telling my mom about potential cosmetic surgery i’d get and she pulled up a pic of me when i was 15 and said “why would you look at this face and think it’s ugly?”

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i fucked up and forgot to follow up w my psychiatrist and now i’m going thru a depressive episode during the holidays swag

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

physical pain > mental pain

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when i remember that my high school friend had said “you’re pretty for an asian” , i remind myself that not all of us are equipped with the people and knowledge to know how offensive that is

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

spending time in minnesota with my sister was wonderful. i didn’t want to leave. now i’m just stressed

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

chris told me that i tend to crack under pressure and he’s right and now i want to die

[mother soap @alphamothersoap]

the way chris loves me and the way i lov ehim is just 😫💖😳👽😥🥺🫢🤝

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i dont think i look like i have my shit together and that’s ok