Who you surround yourself with is so important.
You need other people who are going somewhere. People who will speak life and not death.
Your problem might not be your sin list. It might be your friend list.
Marriage is such a sacred and beautifully designed act to symbolize Christ love and unity to The Church. Speaking as someone who has not yet had the pleasure of experiencing this, it’s breaks me to see even the thought of it throw around and abandoned like it so commonly is.