every time someone says “you’ll figure it out, you always do :)” to me the rage burns hotter in my chest. do you know how much work goes into figuring it out???? do you know how tired I am of ALWAYS having to figure it out by myself???
it is just so strange to go from adoring a musician for years during the peak of your adolescence, have to then come to terms with the fact he is abusive and cruel in reality, and then have to learn of his gruesome death and try to fit that all into a neat statement