HAECHAN BBL 🐻💬
“czennie hi
it’s haechan, celebrating my 10th anniversary ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
it feels really strange ㅋㅋㅋ
at first, i think it’s already been 10 years but when i look back, i also feel like i really have worked hard and lived diligently for the past 10 years… ㅋㅋ
anyway, do you think i’ve made it this far well enough??
i still feel like i’ve so many shortcomings, and i’m embarrassed because i haven’t become the adult i imagined i would be, and i feel like i’m very different from the kind of singer i imagined i would be at my 10th anniversary. but even so, i’m incredibly grateful because i feel like i’ve spent these 10 years receiving so much love. that being said, if i talk about how i really feel… there are times when the path i chose can feel heavy and overwhelming to me. sometimes i wonder, is this really the right fit for me? or does this outfit just look so beautiful that i’m trying to make myself fit into it?
and more than anything, while this job allows me to receive love and attention from so many people, there are also times when it feels unfair and sad to be hated by people. i want to just brush it off by thinking i’m okay. no, they’re only saying that because they don’t know me, but without even realizing it, sometimes it does hurt a little. even when i go on stage thinking, they’ll change their minds when they see how hard i’m working. there are things that don’t change. but you know what? i was happy. getting on stage, singing, dancing, traveling around the world, being loved, and simply having stages where i could perform that was happiness to me. no matter what that looked like, and no matter what team i was part of, i was happy that i could feel that way wherever i was. i was so happy that, both as a team and as haechan, i was able to share and show you so much music. it’s strange, isn’t it? even when i receive criticism that has no reason and no emotion behind it, i can still say that i’m happy… ㅋㅋ
i think that’s because you were always sincere toward me. i think i could feel that sincerity every time i performed and every time an album was released and i think that’s why i’m excited even now, when the blingy album is coming out, even though i released the album the way i did. i still don’t think of myself as a singer who has reached their 10th anniversary. i still get nervous, and there are still many times when i worry and because i know i can do better, i don’t want to think of myself that way just yet. i’ll perform while hoping that you can see that side of me too. i’m not very trendy, so i don’t really know what’s popular and i’m not very good at following trends. i’m also a little old-fashioned as a person, so i might be predictable sometimes, but i’ll keep going forward happily. thank you so much, thank you truly so so much. thank you for reading this long message. i hope this can become an opportunity for you to feel one step closer to haechan. it’s still not easy for me to reveal what’s truly in my heart, but even so, i’ll keep trying to get closer to you. see you tomorrow!!”
what I also like about this era is that we’ve flirted with other colour schemes in the past but Blingy is just so unapologetically GREEN I haven’t felt this patriotic since Sticker