AnaCigLover

19yo straight male, uk, ana-bed-Mia pipeline. Lw-53kg, Hw-95kg, Cw-71kg

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals I’m proud of you for making that choice bro. Like I really am. I really hope you find peace. I was really worrying when I heard you were going. But man that actually made me happy (ofc in a rooting for you to get your life back way)

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals I thought u went home bro what happened

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals The people who post them. It’s a way to vent 😭

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

Mixing 4mmc and molly and I have to wake up at 6am for biology 🤣
Swear I do more work on a comedown than when normal lol

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals You’ve got this man. You’re stronger than you think deep down

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals Binge urges will slowly disappear bro you will be surprised:)

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals I believe in you bro🙏🏽 life might be different this time. You could go back to university:) it’s going to be hell but I know deep down you can do it :)

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

A clinician gave me a call yesterday and said that there’s not much they can do since I’m not responding to treatment and that they will probably look at discharging me. Even tho I’ve lost a lot recently and still b/p often🤔

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

Nobody:
Me because my brain can’t decide if it want to have a successful future or if it wants to destroy it:

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals Yeah fr. It’s like they’re tryna rage bait with the portions

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals Always one message away bro. Take care and stay safe

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals I havnt got any offers yet but I didnt apply to the top unis haha

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

My Ed clinic hasn’t been in contact with me in 11 days, no appointments , no bloods despite me losing 25kg since October. Have maintained so far this year. Might just lose as much as possible to show them what happens when they forget I exist 😛

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

It’s been 3.5 months and I still don’t know if I’m relapsing. I don’t know what body I want, I’ve lost 24kg+ but I still don’t know if I’m relapsing, I’m not starving myself it’s just happening. Such a weird feeling and a lot different than to before.

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals Damn she’s really like that at her big age :/

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

Why can my brain not decide if I want to continue trying to recover with gym and, continue college and go to uni or whether I wanna relapse harder than ever, destroy my life, any chances of a future I have, end up going inpatient again just because I want to look like how I feel

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

Turns out of you take too much molly for too long you forget ur college timetavlw you’ve had for 5 months and go to the gym instead

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals Damn bro I just saw this. 🫂🫂. Couldnt imagine the thoughts running around ur head rn. But bro just a thought. You could go back to uni. Obvs that’s the last thing u care abt rn but yeah bro. Ts sucks. Wishing u the best man

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals Same place as last time bro? Room looks different

[AnaCigLover @anaman188]

@rrrcals This too funny wtf 😂 praying for you brother. Stay safe:)