Ren 𐔌˙.

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obslovetwt, edtwt, basic dni.

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I don't weight myself I just restrict and hope.

and if I binge I kms, that simple >_<

bmi goal is 15, I don't have a date or anything just, a bmi goal :]

bye bye, moot me if you see this, in genuinely desperate for friends, I have literally none and I'm aroace so don't try it.

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I'm going to be fasting btw. I don't have an excuse after tomorrow. like actually. anyway, have fun oomfs. I need a break from everything (to focus in my ed but shhhhhh)

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I'm so serious.

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I wish I never knew what calories were. my life isn't even ruined a lot but, it fucking sucks. WHY am I so mad over binging? fml. I'm taking a break off this stupid app, kill me if I come back before a week from now.

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I'm going to kill someone or something, not really though

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I've never felt real. I need to take my meds again but it fuck. that's a lot to admit and a lot of punishment lol. I should've died 5 years ago

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

an I even real?

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

is it bad that I WANT this to kill me? there's 2 ways that can happen. I don't stop eating because I'm a fatty OR I lock in and starve myself to death, no In between. one way I feel awful and the other, I feel awful but skinny. which one to "choose"

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

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[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

in "public" then there's no point in deleting it. anyway, I'll add my backup to my bio if any of you want to add it🤞love you oomfs

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

in "public" then there's no point in deleting it. anyway, I'll add my backup to my bio if any of you want to add it🤞love you oomfs

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I'm actually never going to lock in. I genuinely mean it when I say I need someone to convince me it ideally, force me to lock in. fuck my stupid fat fucking life, am I just destined to be fat? I don't even have a reason to binge it just, happens and it's fucking bread. there's

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

save me from myself I fucking beg of you. someone, ANYONE. either way it's going to kill me, I would rather be skinny when I die then some fat fuck who couldn't stop eating because their such a fatty. fuck. I'm making a backup account because of this, if in going to bawl my eyes

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I don't stop eating. fuck everything

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I binged man fuck everything, everything sucks I should just kill myself someone kidnap me and force starve me Istg. how do I stop binging, someone help me before I get even faster

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

okay, I ate it. it's whatever it's still under 500,I think.

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I made a sandwich to "eat" in the eyes of my parents but it's actually what I like, why'd I do that? it's so tempting and so hard to not eat

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I might eat it idk.

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

I made a sandwich to "eat" in the eyes of my parents but it's actually what I like, why'd I do that? it's so tempting and so hard to not eat

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

like, I CANNOT resist a chicken and lettuce sandwich 😔

[Ren 𐔌˙. @anarenxia]

how's everypony doing today?