Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮

Openly autistic and learning to like and embrace it. Follows are not endorsement. Lover of Japan, kicker of butts. Let’s fix that double empathy problem. 👍

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I fxxin love Cookie Monster.

C is for cookie.

AND THAT’S GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME.

[Cookie Monster @MeCookieMonster]

Acting silly, what's happening? Me a monster!

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

My conceptualization of the autism double empathy problem:

The grass is always browner.

Really, that’s how it feels. So when we have trouble understanding you… but only we can communicate our subjective experiences…

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

The idea that I’m not alone and that this year’s official diagnosis is evidence of that is comforting, but only recently.

I suppose it finally registered with my mind that my autistic peers need me as much as I need them. I’m not ashamed, and I want to be there for them too.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I don’t know if I believe that anymore, but I am fully aware that there are plenty of others that worry about very similar things.

Dating is the hardest aspect of the social experience. There’s pacing expectations, leadership expectations, etc. I really suck at estimates lol.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

Since wanting to change, the hardest dilemma in my mind to swallow was the prospect of being forced to “date down”, or even the platonic equivalent.

In the back of my mind there was always this intense realization that my real self was simply and logically incompatible.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

If I could say a few nice things:

I loved the clean vocals.
I loved the refined sound.
I loved that the lyrics were short, sweet and to the point.

There’s a lot to admire about the albums I’ve heard.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

Please give the man basic human respect. I’m not out to cancel, I just felt my hand was forced.

I’m calling on any autistic allies who feel led to provide support. I’m just one person. My Achilles heel is the social experience.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I’m scared too.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

Heh.

Wait for it…..

@Halo #HaloInfinite #wat

[XBOX @XBOX]

Gaming is a universal language and GLHF knows no boundaries

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

@adultswim Your mom’s grounded

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

If Spartan 711 doesn’t have a slurpee visor, son, I will be so disappoint.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

You are not alone.

Vitamins I recommend for mental well being:
Omega-3 fish oil
D3
Folate (B9; other B vitamins help too)
A good multivitamin

I’ve found CBD massage oil on temples provides quick (almost immediate) relief for panic attacks, too.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

If you experience any of this, you are loved by a stranger who gets it. A stranger who wants nothing from you, but hopes you also overcome.

I take one med I am very happy with. If you are taking something you are not comfortable with, talk to people you trust & a doctor.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

If you experience any of this, you are loved by a stranger who gets it. A stranger who wants nothing from you, but hopes you also overcome.

I take one med I am very happy with. If you are taking something you are not comfortable with, talk to people you trust & a doctor.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I don’t want people to suffer in a similar way. I don’t want them to lose hope of ever feeling whole again. I don’t want their friends or families to give up on them, or write them off as a lost cause either.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I’m sharing all this because this is my experience. This has disrupted life as I knew it.

There actually *are* dangers of blindly following medical advice. But there are also plenty of dangers of ignoring medical advice.

It’s just in this case, it posed a danger to my health.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

So what you mean to tell me is…

This “catalyst” isn’t a catalyst at all. It just disrupts my ability to process the trauma I take the medicine for.

What?

It cripples my ability to critically think?

And it makes me apathetic?

How is this even remotely a medicine at all?

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

Special emphasis. “Brain disabling treatments”
https://t.co/s5xAwzYkDd

“Antipsychotic’ drugs […] are used literally to chemically lobotomize millions”

LEARN about what a lobotomy is. Severs stuff in your prefrontal cortex, which is responsible for critical thinking.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

At one point in time I was prescribed an antipsychotic medication. It was pitched to me by my doctor as a “catalyst” for my antidepressant.

No. It numbed me out and made me hate life, but it was too painful to wean off without cannabis use. I quit after 4 years in that way.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

My favorite is when you get people who have never taken a single psychiatric med.

A few things to expect:
1) A lot of contempt
2) ill = wrong
3) “just take the medicine”

Why don’t YOU take the medicine? And why don’t YOU take it until the rest of us say you’re “better”?

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

But the conversation is only between doctor and patient!

If psychiatric meds had AMAZON REVIEWS, don’t you think we’d have a more comprehensive picture of which medicines are actually GOOD AT THEIR JOB?

It does not replace science, but patient = consumer here. DOES IT WORK?

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I think the most FRUSTRATING aspect of the mental health experience is the “professional catch 22”.

You are ill. Doc says med good. You take med. You don’t know what med is doing for you but doc leans “just keep taking it”. Condition never truly improves. “Just keep taking it”.

[Mr. Andrew, aka Ḷ̳̝̍͊̌̄͜o͔͕̍͒n̟̼͈̈́̃̚k̓͟ ̪̦̈́̂ 💮 @andoryuu3]

I think the most FRUSTRATING aspect of the mental health experience is the “professional catch 22”.

You are ill. Doc says med good. You take med. You don’t know what med is doing for you but doc leans “just keep taking it”. Condition never truly improves. “Just keep taking it”.