joey is losing it

shedtwt | forced recov | struggling artist | he/they/it | 22 | AuDHD, BPD | stoner 🍃 | bmi 16 hell | follow at your own risk | backup @anemicalienn | one love

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

shedtwt intro 🤸🏻‍♂️✨️

pro recovery!
ednos, constantly struggling w something else. junkorexic (allegedly)

mentally unwell stoner 🍃
i use tw's and try to be as mindful as possible, but i still post abt triggering shit very often❗️

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safe travels!

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

i feels like im dying. my heart and chest has been hurting so bad all day. im not handling this very well at all

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

maybe she's right and i am a narcissist just like my fucking mother

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

i fucked up big time. gf talking about how i ruined the relationship over this. im a fucking horrible partner i never deserved her in the first place

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

just gonna enjoy the time i have left with my gf. might end up cutting together if things dont get better ngl

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

you know life is going to shit when there's fucking dust on your toothbrush

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

why does being human have to be so excruciatingly fucking painful

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

trying really hard not to freak out. i dont know who's gonna bail me out when shit hits the fan. my parents wont be alive forever and neither will my fucking gf apparently. i never had a life. it was all doomed from the start

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

might have to consider getting a manual labor job or something. or maybe i just off myself instead. my gf is miserable and would rather die than get a job and its making me feel hopeless. there's no way all of this has been for fucking nothing

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

im so fucking done dude i just want to be dead. i cant keep doing this

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

my gf's parents are being so weird. they are threatening us about staying quiet past 11pm. there apparently has been no further complaints so this came out of nowhere. im so done i dont know what to do anymore

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

@rocknrik_ why the fuck not broski

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

wanna do dxm again

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

dad delivered me more meds and i got more ativan with it!! fuck yeahhh

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

rick is fading 😦
might have to buy some paint and sealer to fix him up with

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

gonna take more ativan to ruin my appetite. been working like a charm i cant lie

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

feels like everyone forgot about me idk

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

man i just want to disappear

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

running on 3 hrs of sleep, 3 mg ativan, a redbull and too much weed

[joey is losing it @anemicalien]

took 2 mgs of ativan for the first time in almost a month. im in heaven