Even 100% completely understanding the why and circumstances, watching someone you love erase your name before walking back into another part of his life is BRUTAL. Gut wrenching. 0/10 do not recommend
Snap out of it twin. That's not heartbreak. Heartbreak is losing someone who loved you correctly.
You lost someone who gave you anxiety, inconsistency, and the bare minimum while you gave them everything.
I really owe myself an apology. For staying in places where I felt I wasn't wanted, but chose to hold on anyway. For trying to fix bonds that were already dead. For putting people first who would never have done the same for me. I knew better, but I kept giving chances. I kept showing up for folks who didn't appreciate me. So now I'm holding myself accountable, because I should.
I want someone to choose me. To be all in. I want someone to share their fears with me, their victories, their hopes and dreams. I want a genuine, slow, soft love. I want to grow with them. I want them to want βusβ as badly as I do.