there's glory ahead but our love will be forgotten
if my heart was still mine i would go to the bottom, and apologize to you until the day it went rotten.
you have been trying to disconnect yourself from reality for so long, that now you feel as if you don't belong here. you see yourself as an alien amongst other people. you long for a home that doesn't exist.
I miss you so much it feels gross. It feels wet. It feels nauseating.
I want to rip out my heart and shake it like a Magic 8 Ball.
Is this okay, is this okay, is this okay,
or does it make me weak?
ASK AGAIN LATER.
i want to talk about what happened without mentioning how much it hurt. there has to be a way. to care for the wounds without reopening them. to name the pain without inviting it back into me.
when it finally entered me, i realized it wasn't divine after all. it was nothing but rage and need. my holy purpose was a sham. my great honor was to keep this thing inside me like a loaded gun.
โI don't understand why you haven't tried it yet,โ Julian said carelessly. He glanced at Paul's mouth, so fleetingly that he might have imagined it. โI wouldn't stop you, if that's what you're worried about. You could do anything to me and I'd let you.โ