If there’s any fibre of your being, that thinks doing this to the community that is already in mourning of those children, is in any way helpful & a step towards “getting your country back” then you have well and truly lost your fucking mind.
You don’t ever just get over a mental illness, you may finally be on top of it, but aspects of it still make daily life a big struggle ! You’ll have your good days and your bad, just keep fighting 👊🏼