This is my story. I am a IIM blacki passout. No job. Going the worst phase of life.
I have these issues
Low confidence
Lack of clarity as to what to do in life
Abusive
Anger
Porn
Struggling with discipline and purpose in life.
i failed on my day 5.
couldnt control my urge and mastrubated, I feel guilt, its like these become evidences and become part of ur character and u lose ur faith in self when next time u give a word. the first day is high on dopamine becuase 1st but u lose by day 4
day 4
successfully abstained.
every moment of life focus on growing.
Inch by inch every second every hour put it into effort. develop. just focus. do whatever to get out of shit hole. I will be a billionaire any how. I will grow and develop
It feels the hardest in terms of being horny. And wanting to quit my diet. Its just the third day on diet and 4th day on abstaining. Still it feels like years.
Keep pushong. Keep going.
To make me a good person, to fill me with love and chivalry. to make me a noble soul. as the rest all I can achieve with my hardwork but I need his help in filling my heart with love so that I can share the same with the people around.
The other thing was the act of praying to god, till today whenever i prayed I used to ask him for something like my job, success, money or something else like health of my parents, but 2day for the first time I just asked for 1 thing which is ....