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what a broken soul you've discovered eh?

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the irony of being broken hearted by a broken heart you didn’t break lmao

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i’m walking away from things for the last time, again. doesn’t get any easier each time. but i did it because my time with this process is over, not because i want to. acceptance.

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i initially typed; give me a sign.
i was not being specific enough. now last night i dreamt of u accepting the invitation so now i don’t know what to do with it. what kinda sign is that oml

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dear god, i’m starting to think that i need to give up on this one as well. is it too early for me? what what if i waited too long again and miss my opportunity? i can’t lose her again. she’s the one for me, i believe it, so be it.

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dear god, i’m starting to think that i need to give up on this one as well. is it too early for me? what what if i waited too long again and miss my opportunity? i can’t lose her again. she’s the one for me, i believe it, so be it.

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i wouldn’t go through the hassle of converting my anger to sadness just to protect u. u don’t even see it as a good thing, nor did u felt any compassion for me. u just sat there waiting for me to stop. u even see it as a weakness, which honestly, it is. won’t happen again

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looking back, one of my pretty big regrets is being vulnerable in front of u. shedding tears, fucking sobbing in front of u, hiccup and all. i regret the tears i spent on u. if i knew how it’d end, id let the rage take over and turn things for the worst then and there

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why the hell do i bother spending years watering dead plant

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took some time but the mourning just arrived i think. may be from the update, may not. doesn’t matter

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if i could go back, id stop you and me from becoming us. stop you and me from ending up hurting each other because we “love each other so much”. honestly it’d be so much better for both of us if we didn’t do it, wouldn’t u agree? you and i could go our own way without all this

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bcs now you’re with someone else again, u look a different kind of happy that i don’t really recognise bcs it’s not the same one we had. good for u

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u were kind of like me, were. came from limited freedom. except we fought for yours. my freedom was not meant to be fought against. my freedom was limited by responsibilities, not others choices.

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so now you’ve got your freedom, but you can’t use it to its full potential with me. i think that’s why your anger only shows with me. that’s my theory at least

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it’s odd watching them lead a new life you has nothing to do with when you were once the centre of it all. but then again this was my decision lol

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it’s not a race, i got my own thing going on, im doing better as well, she’s bad at making decisions so that won’t last long, she’s just making herself worth less every time. besides, im still waiting on ms dental confirmation. i know what i want, im working on it

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after this i’ll go back to hating u, it make things easier. so fuck u and have a good rest of your life.

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in this episode of; “written down so it’s off my head”
i just discovered billie’s l’amour de ma vie. reminds me of u. i laughed it off. and tonight u posted another snippets of your happy new life. well the song did mention i wished the best for your life, i really do

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let’s see what else.. let’s end with some wishes. i haven’t wished you much since then right? i wished this guy is the one for u. i think he’s alright, he checks all your boxes. i must say you’re way outta his league tho. but u don’t know that, guess u fell for his words.