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Formerly @/anarock. Struggling with an ED, anxiety and PCOS . I am the fattest person alive. I pretty much like alkaline trio, AFI, Pokémon and alcohol.

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More importantly my rooftop pool in cancun last month. With swim up bar. Overlooking the seaaaaa.

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View from my room in cancun last month.

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The lady in front of me on the bus is drinking vodka out of a coke bottle and the smell is triggering me. I was going to try to stay sober this weekend but...

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I'm fat AF but at least I have 2 fluffy black cats ?

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Can't stop eating and getting fat. Fml.

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@RibcageDiary_ I like it. But, would it make the rapist angry enough to kill me, probably.

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Alive, but fat.

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@bonelessana Lol I agree. I didn't think my body was actually capable of carrying a baby but here we are lol

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My doctor absolutely will not let me take birth control pills because of blood clots....but I feel like I'm fine now. I want to take them.

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@Heartless_Harpy I'm not sure. I can't take anything with estrogen.

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@skinnysucculent Yeah you Def need to.

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Am I over thinking this? I refuse to use condoms forever lol.

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I cant take the mini pill because you have to take it at the same time every day and I'll NEVER remember. Also...don't want anything implanted in me 😫😫 I don't want my fiance to have to get a vasectomy.

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Also normally I work 44hrs a week and this week it was 55. Completely alone and nonstop. Definately mistakes were made. Maybe my company shouldn't have let my co worker go on holiday during our busiest week of the year.

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Going downhill fast. BED caught up to me again. DR wanted to give me Vyvanse but I need to see a psych first because....bulimia. I just need help and that's going to take months.

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@struggle_diary You are

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How much does cocaine cost I need to be skinny.

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I hate myself. I'm so done. Just done.

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@fakehappi2020 Noooo coffee :(